The title of this post really says it all. Feeling settled. I am exactly that. I have found my groove, made myself at home, and started a little routine here in Vancouver. I am so thankful that the Evan's have opened their home to me for the extended period of time, which allows me to un-pack my bags and relax. I'm not going any where for the next 5 weeks. It feels good.
This idea of being settled is really hitting home to me as lately the minute I feel relaxed, in the groove, I'm packing my bags and off again. I really think this 2012 year will be that for me- a huge year of transition, lots of travel, and figuring out where I'm suppose to be. I know I long for the day where I can unpack my bags and stay for good. I can't wait to decorate and create a home that is my very own. But a part of life is also the enjoyment of jumping around, having spontaneity to everyday life, and making your mark on the world in whatever capacity that may be. Through unsettling times are often the opportunities for growth, transformation and discovering where you wish to be, and with whom. You see the light that shines on what's important, but also, often when you're not even looking, you see the light at the end of the tunnel.
In the past week, Facebook and Twitter have exploded with messages on graduation, pictures of convocation, and all these new grads, with their degrees in hand, wearing summer dresses and showcasing HUGE smiles. I long to be there. Standing beside my friends, celebrating the past 4 years. I want to be a grad of 2012, throwing my hat up in the air, screaming 'I DID IT'. I want to jump in the air with my degree, rejoicing in one of the largest accomplishments thus far in life. But now is not my time. I must go back for 3 more course. 3 freaking courses! That's right THREE! I'll complete in December, and will graduate in June 2013. It will be the biggest day of my life. Someday in June 2013. My family will be there. I'll be hiring a professional photographer to ensure this day is documented. I'll wearing a beautiful summer dress, my smile will smear across my face, and I'll dance in celebration that 'I DID IT'.
It's taken me a couple days to feel settled with this reality. This reality of living at home, still in school, needing to find a job, wondering what I'll be doing in January 2013. After having an appointment via phone with my saint, or otherwise known as academic advisor Alison, its beginning to settle. I'll find my groove, and I'll see the light. I know that through this experience I'll finish wiser, stronger, and with a new outlook on life. I know I'll learn and grow along the way, I'll challenge and be challenged, but in the end, there will be light.
...and so I'm not really sure where any of that takes me. The joys of writing what's on my heart. But I bring you to today's nuggets
:: The mess that it was, trying to figure out what day of the week my classes would fall on. Looks as though Wednesday I will be doing the commute. Stay tuned.
:: Ever heard of Cupcake girls? Well I was at their store and let me tell you, the cupcakes are as delicious as they look. I couldn't resist not buying, and so I left with a cookies scream- scrumptious!
:: It may be cold and rainy outside, but thats not stopping me from having a good time.
:: I made this HUGE sign for Sunday in hopes that people would wonder what it's all about and stop by to peak. I'm looking for drivers for The GO Project. I hope this accomplishes that mission. Time will tell.
:: The sun made an appearance today! Not enough to dry the grasses, but hopefully tomorrow Mr. Sun decides to come out and play. I would LOVE a day of warmth. The beach is walking distance away and tomorrow's plan is to grab my book, water bottle and camera, and spend the day sea side.
With that, may you too enjoy the sunshine :)